Wednesday, December 21, 2011


Just like the saying "good things comes to those who waits"..well, I couldn't think of anything more well said than that at the moment! I'm feeling gleeful inside, so happy I can't describe it! I imagine myself to be in one big gigantic HAPPY bubble ;p

I've been awarded with the Group Leadership Team (GLT) Award. In my organization, there are 2 prestigious awards up for grabs for those highly performed employees - the Group CEO award and on a smaller scale, the GLT award, both under the prerogatives of the Group CEO.

As explained by my VP this name was nominated for the GCEO award. However, since the management decided to streamline the whole list of recipients, only a handful of those listed will be receiving the GCEO award - the crème de la crème so to speak. So, those who were dropped from the list shall make it into the GLT award list. Hence, there I was...sitting in that meeting room...absorbing it awe, along with the rest of everybody else of course! Haha.

And just as my line of thoughts ventured into "what the heck did I do to deserves this recognition...?" my VP was saying "You may think that you are just an ordinary employee, you did not contribute much to your unit, much less to the company...but for us, you do. You deserves this award more than anyone else. And we want to reward you" Damn! That's good to hear. Haha

I know I have Apek to thank for this. This award is beyond anything I ever imagined myself to achieve in my career plan here. Even my ex boss felt so proud. So, the agenda today is to write Apek an email [coz I'm such a coward to actually thank him in person...pfffttt~!]...I dunno how to begin aside from one big, bold, beautiful, PINK [haha] "THANK YOU!". I hope the email works its charm! hahaha

Miracle happens, people. Dreams do come true.
And I, for one, have dreamt beautiful dreams :)



Tuesday, December 20, 2011

Surprise, anyone?

I had a surprise this morning when I logged into my email.
I've been called for a special session with my VP, on the Group Leadership Team (GLT) Award.

The email reads:

We would like to invite you for a session with VP as below:

Date : 21 Dec 2011

Time : 10:30AM – 11:30AM

Venue : Emperor Meeting Room, 20N

Attendance : Compulsory

I wonder what it's all about.
Hasil korek2 adalah tersangatla positive!
I'm agitated. Excited at the same time ;p

Until tomorrow then.


Thursday, December 1, 2011

Salam Maal Hijrah 1433

I have been thinking for quite some time what to write on my new year note. After carefully arranging my thoughts, I finally manage to compose and summarize what last year had been for me and what I wanted to wish for as we ushered in the new year :)

Last year was definitely another year of roller coaster ride ;p i got my heart broken, i suffered 2 major health scares, went through that ordeal of last minutes retraction of job promotion, dealing with some investment gone named it..macam2 adaaaa! However, despite the hiccups in my life plans they did not dampen my spirits to move on and start over in both personal and professional life. I learned to get better, and be stronger. I learned to fall, and to raise up higher. I learned to smile, to laugh, to wink even when my world is turned upside down. Most importantly, I learned to accept God's will with open arms and know that good things comes to those who wait :)

This year I have planned things to look forward to. There's that big mid year plan that I have put on the map ever since I put "finding Jacob" on hold. There's also that aim for another offer for job promotion. Not to forget that "get fit and get ____" motto to turn into reality. hehehe wedding(s) to plan, friends to have fun with, families to love...and ME to cherish ;p so, it's gonna be another bzbzbzbzzzzz year for Farina peeps!

I guess I could say I begin this new year as a brand new person. One who is more matured, one who knows that she can survive anything that was thrown her way. One who has learned to let go of the past. One who has experienced life at its worse in the course of 28 years of her life. One who hopefully will always remember to appreciate life with its ups and downs ;)

So there! All my wishes and hope for the new year...with the details pinned somewhere in my head. Cuma benda yang belom pasti tu saye simpan dulu lah...kalau elaborate takut tak menjadi pulak..just like last time ;p

This year is all about me. As vain as that may sound, I still wanna focus on me coz I am done focusing on making other people happy esp. at the cost of losing my own self in the process ;p I hope life is kind to me this year, if not kinder, than the previous year. I hope God forgives me of my sins and may this year brings more joy into my life. And I have a good feeling that it will! ;)



Tuesday, October 4, 2011


This is my wish for you and me:

comfort on difficult days,
smiles when sadness intrudes,
rainbows to follow the clouds,
laughter to kiss our lips,
sunsets to warm our hearts,
hugs when spirits sag,
beauty for our eyes to see,
friendships to brightens our beings,
faith so that we may believe,
confidence for when we doubt,
courage to know ourselves,
patience to accept the truth
love to complete our lives.


Wednesday, September 28, 2011


Sarawak trip was fun.
I'm so glad we had this planned many months ago..coz it's September now.
And I'm making happy bubbles. Lots of happy bubbles.
In September...and October...November...December.
Looking forward to the new year.
New dreams. New Memories.


Sunday, July 3, 2011

Dreams and Drums.

I had a dream last night. I dreamt of the past..and suddenly missed those moments. I woke up feeling sadness washing over me. But it went away as swiftly and it was just one of those rare moments where you start to dwell on the what-ifs, whys, on and so forth haha.

It's the heart. Yeps, that stubborn drum that refused to heed to common sense. It doesn't choose who it falls in love with. It just go ahead and beat for that person, louder and faster than it should, without permission from anyone. The heart wants what the heart wants!

I'm learning to make it stop..beating for that person lah i mean..not stop beating altogether hahaha. It's a daily process. Most days, I'm able to forget about it...but there are moments, it all came back haunting me. Moments just like this morning. It's that damn dream. The one that me and that person used to share. That once-upon-a-time thing. That's what I have trouble forgetting at times. They say, it hurts when something good ends, but it hurts even more if you cling to it, knowing that it's not there. And yes, it hasn't been there for US...
at least for a while now.

So, let's make new ones. New dreams. Let's make each of them better than the old ones. Make it more real. More tangible. More me, no us. Let's drown the beat of that drum shall we!